Triggers at Their Best

Well, the day before my next counselor appointment was the perfect example of triggers to my anxiety/depression.

I went my parents house to eat today with my fiance.  And it's just coming at me from all sides.  My fiance just does things that doesn't bother me perse but they bother me because of how it looks to my family.  He actually took his phone out at the fricking dinner table to check his fantasy baseball scores while my mom is on another soapbox about the government.  Now, I admit I pretty much tune out what she says, but don't take your phone out.  I actually pushed his hand which everyone saw and laughed about but still, I was so pissed.

Then my mom starts on me "So are you going to decided when your shower is going to be or are you going to wait long enough so you can't find a place to have it anymore?"  Mind you, my wedding is 14 months away which would make my shower a year off.  She acting like its the end of the world.  I'm sorry, I work, I have other things going on right now - why don't you call some places and find out for me?  Then she's pestering me about who's standing up in my wedding and how I have to tell my cousin in Italy right away so that she knows...AGAIN, it's 14 months away!  Gosh, if I'm going to have to deal with this for the next year, I'm going to go loco.

So what do I do?  Come home and start crying.  I'm so tired of feeling like this.  But I'll have plenty to cover in my session tomorrow.